I'm trying so hard to hold on.
As the clouds move in to darken the sky and hide the setting sun, so the depression begins to darken my soul. Waves of hopelessness and despair wash up on the shore growing bigger with every passing moment. The winds of pain and torment grow strong as a gale. Can I hold on?
"Oh God, how long will this go on?"
From nowhere it seems to come. It creeps in silently. Swiftly, it overcomes me. What happened? Suddenly, the beautiful calm is turned into a raging storm that tries to tear me apart. Exhaustion in every limb leaves me feeling like a helpless rag doll. I'm trying so hard to hold on.
"I can do everything through Christ who strengthens me."
I'm so tired of the pit. Why do I have to go back so often?
"Hold on to me, Father. Don't let me fall. I want so much to follow Your path. You promise never to leave me alone. You never lie. As I wrap myself around Your truth, give me the faith to hold on. Give me the strength to persevere. You don't have to calm the storm. I know I can make it through as long as I'm with You."
